Anxious, tired, heartburn, toffee bars, love.
What do these words have in common? They were each completely redefined when I had kids. Yes, even toffee bars!
Before kids, I thought I was anxious, but really I just had too much time on my hands to overthink things.
Tired seems universal; everyone knows tired, right? No, you think you know what tired means, and then you go three nights in a row with only a few hours spread between them, and you realize your “tired” before has nothing on your new definition of tired. THEN you get pregnant with your second child and do that same no sleep routine and you look back at your former self and get pissed off that you didn’t enjoy those couple of hours, spread over three nights.
I don’t usually put too much stock to old wives tales, but my kids both had full heads of hair, and I spent 9 months with horrendous heartburn. Before I was pregnant I would claim heartburn, but no, that wasn’t heartburn. That was a SLIGHT awkward feeling that I was being a baby about. The worst part about the pregnancy heartburn, is it stuck around after I gave birth. Great.
This simple, fan favorite dessert was my go to for parties. It WOWS people and is super easy to make! Now, the idea of making and bringing anything stresses me out. It’s still delicious and easy, of course, but it’s just one more thing on my todo list. (recipe below, even though I’m making it sound like a daunting task it is SUPER simple and yummy)
All those other problems don’t matter when you think about your new definition of love. I knew love before kids, but it was a different kind. There is no need to get to know your kids before you feel love for them. You don’t have to learn their quirks or personalities, you just love them. Much like how we love our own parents. The foundation of love in our relationships with our children is organically strong – it’s up to us to build a structure worthy of it’s footing.
Becoming a parent brings a mountain of change. These are just some things that are different. One major thing I noticed over the holiday season? An easy, relaxing holiday isn’t a thing anymore. It’s still fun and awesome, but in a chaotic kind of way.
Holidays As A Parent
This holiday season, I became anxious about our travels. We don’t go far, but with two kids I was nervous for the trek. Did I pack everything? What if someone got sick? Where would Kennedy nap? What if Madison had an accident? Did I remember the dessert? [Read more…]